Candy Kittens. Luckily, does not contain Kitten, but does contain Disappointment.

thumbnail_20170618_195901I feel so betrayed by this sweet (Candy) company. As you can see, the word London is used in the branding of this product. Also, the word British, is used to description of this product. Giving the impression, the product is made in Britain.

20170619_132731I gave these sweets (candy) a try and I was a bit confused, when I noticed, they taste a lot like a Spanish candy. British chewy sweets (candy) taste more of sugar and gelatine, with a hint of fruit flavour. These sweets (candy) taste a lot like fruit juice and sugar and were a bit harder, then the usually British chewy sweets. Now suspicious, I look at the packet again and realise it says British style. A sneaky way of saying these are not made in Britain, we only want you to think that. Looking closer, my suspicions were right. They are in fact, made in Spain for a company in London.

20170619_095230So, let’s get this straight, its candy made in Spain for a company in London and its only British style, not actually British. So, are they Spanish British style candy?? If so, why not say that in the description. Is it just me or does it sound like, someone in their marketing department is full is dung. I hate being misled and this has put me of buying this brand ever again. A little honesty goes a long way. Like why use British as a selling point, if your product is made in Spain. That’s a bit messed up.

thumbnail_20170619_100724Also, it looks like the cat put its face in a blender. Luckily, they tasted half decent, so they weren’t a complete disappointment.

Overall thoughts, sweets (candy) tasted okay, but branding needs a lot of work.

Mademoiselle Noir, a Victim of Prejudice.

ec1d89a6-bcc2-42b1-991a-0fe123c1dcb0Mademoiselle Noir (Miss Black), her only crimes were living in a tower, having long black Rapunzel hair and repeating the same French phrases over and over again. Mistaking her for a demon and burning her to death, was a huge over reaction on those towns people’s behalf. They could have at least, ran tests to prove or disprove, her demon status, before they set her hair on fire. Prime example of why holding prejudice, is both idiotic and also dangerous.

Short post today, because it’s Father’s Day and I need to spend time with my Papa. Today’s post is digital art work inspired by a song/animation, I came across on YouTube, called Mademoiselle Noir: A Tragedy. It’s a very sad song, but has an important message about prejudice and judging people based on their appearance. Hence, why I thought it was worth a mention.


Pencil drawing, I done for Orly. She said Mademoiselle Noir tower was too creepy, so made me draw her a Princess Tower.  


Getting so old

50486044-7085-416c-b7fc-3e836ad03ae3.pngIn a few days, I’ll be another year older and I’ve realised, I’m getting so old. I didn’t think I’d survive this long (for justified reasons) and I’m not sure, how much longer I’ll continue to survive. No one is sure of that. For that reason, I’ve created my Bucket list.

If you don’t know what a Bucket list is, it’s a list of things you want to do before you die. This can include crazy, dangerous and wild things like skydiving, fun and exciting things like a dream holiday or sweet and caring things like taking your grandmother on a picnic. Some people put their personal goals on their bucket list, but I’ll not be doing that.

Without farther delay I give you, My Bucket List:2d948cd1-0cfa-49db-a1fb-a25e73064677

  • See the northern lights. They are meant to be amazingly beautiful and I’ve always wanted to see them.
  • Spend the night in an igloo.
  • Travel by dog sled (Could probably do these first 3 at once)
  • Build a snowman, in the Arctic.
  • Hug a Panda bear (better leave this one to the end, in case it mauls me). A baby Panda bear will also do.
  • Look for dinosaur bones. I love dinosaurs and have always wanted to go on an expedition, searching for dinosaur bones.
  • See a wolf in the wild.
  • Hear an actual wolf howl.
  • Visit a haunted house and spend the night.
  • Go white water rafting.
  • Spend 24hours in a tree house, without touching the ground. By this I mean, a tree house built for people to live in, not a child’s tree house.10c71218-db45-4c38-a61c-feb3e79a18b4
  • Give an elephant a bath. I’ve always wanted to do this. It looks really fun and the elephant seem to enjoy it too.
  • Pet an elephant.
  • Be a zookeeper for a day. This might be a tough one to achieve. I’ll have to convince a zoo manager, to let me help out for a day. Hopefully free labour will be enough.
  • Drive a tank.
  • Learn useful survival skills.
  • To live in the wild for a while. I’m curious to know if it’s better, then living as a captive (a figurative captive). I have a gut feeling that it will. I also want to be a free-range human.
  • Eat a crocodile. It probably won’t taste good, but I like the irony of it. Eating, what should eat you.
  • Spend the day at a shooting range, with a pump action shotgun and sniper rifle. I’ve never shot a gun before and I want to know what the big deal is.
  • See a blue whale. I’m really curious, to see how big it is.


fdc2d917-8d47-4702-ad4c-6d66352a04b4Where can I watch this: Netflix (Netflix original)

If I was to describe Blame! in as little words as possible, I would describe it as, future anime I, robot. The similarities between these two movies is remarkable. Even one type of evil robot in Blame!, looks near identical to the robots in I, Robot, expect for the way they move. These robots move more like spiders than humans and have a red light instead of blue.

Both stories start very similar too, with robots no longer obeying humans, going rogue and taking over a city. The only thing that was missing was an anime Will Smith. Instead, Blame! had a more silent hero, called Killy (Kirī).

After the beginning, the two storylines start to differ, but the overall motivation for the main characters remain the same. This aim being, to destroy the robots and regain control of the city. In Blame!, they even find a nice non-evil robot to help them, fight the evil robots.

However, Blame! was a manga, long before the film I, Robot, so I can’t be too hard on Blame! for being similar. I’ve never read this manga (because you can’t properly get manga here), so can’t tell you how similar I, Robot is to Blame!, the manga.

I’m still not sure, whether I like the animation style of Blame!. It has a very video game look and occasionally the characters move very much like a video game character. Making their movements kind of choppy and not very smooth. It’s definitely not the animation style I’m use too. One positive, about this style, is that it looks very realistic at times, which is amazing.

thumbnail_20170609_161121Despite the unusual animation style, Blame!’s story is exciting and enjoyable. It’s set in a post-apocalyptic city, where robots are hell-bent on killing all humans without the NET terminal gene. Regarding them as illegal residents of the city, that must be exterminated. Initially, all humans in the city, had the NET terminal gene and the robots obeyed the humans, building and protecting the city. Then after some type of contamination (we are not told what type) of the city, the humans lose the NET terminal gene and the robots turn on the humans and kill most of the population. A group of survivors are forced to live in isolation, in a safe zone, protected from robot invasions. Never knowing, if there are any other humans surviving in the city.

The survivors must venture out of the safe zone, in search of food. It is on one of these ventures, that they run into another survivor, Killy, after he saves them from a robot attack. Curious of this stranger, they take him back to their village, in the safe zone, to see the elders. It is there, Killy reveals to the elders, that he is searching for a human with the NET terminal gene. He believes if he finds a human with the NET terminal gene, the robots will obey them. Hence, take control of the city back and end this apocalyptic nightmare. Unfortunately, no one in the village has this gene, so Killy must go in search for more survivors. In the hope of finding food and other survivors, the elders decide to help Killy, in his search.

Overall, Blame! is pretty good. If you can get past the unusual animation style, it’s quite an enjoyable film. It has a lot of action and an interesting storyline. Most of the time, you are left in suspense, wondering if the survivors will escape the robot attacks, unharmed and if they should trust Killy or the robot scientist.

There was also quite a lot of arm losing. All I can say is that, I hope I could be that calm, if I ever lost an arm (people lost arms and were surprisingly relaxed about it. They didn’t even seem the slightest bit bothered). The only thing I could find wrong with Blame!, is their use of light and colour in battle scenes. Netflix really should have put a light/brightness warning on this film. The brightness of Killy’s and the safeguard’s gun, really stung my eyes and had them watering like hell.

To conclude, Blame! is one of the better Netflix original anime films. It isn’t that long, so is definitely worth a watch. By the way the film ended, I get a feeling that, they may make a sequel. I’m not sure if non-anime fans would like Blame!. I think the unusual animation style might be too much for them. They might not be able to get past that, to appreciate the action or storyline. However, if you are an anime fan and like robot apocalypse films, then Blame! is the film for you.
Rating: 3.5/5

How can anyone be this cute!

thumbnail_20170605_111311Not bad for a first attempted at pencil drawing, a baby.
This isn’t my usual type of post, because my lungs have betrayed me again, so I’m not feeling great. Chronic asthma and low oxygen levels, is draining the life out of me (let’s hope I don’t develop a chest infection or pneumonia).
Hoping to get back to my usual posts soon. After I regain the energy to create them and can breathe normally again.

thumbnail_20170605_112118If anyone is wondering who the baby is, it’s my god-daughter.

Zombie 101

e94272cc-b7a3-426d-abd7-45a767129f2fHaving watched zombie movies back to back all weekend, as part of zombie week. I’ve noticed something all zombie movies have it common (other than zombies). The characters in these movies, all are completely rubbish at surviving. Yes, I know some are hard-core zombie slayers. But when it comes to basic survival common sense, it seems to be lost on them.

If these characters were real, I doubt they would survive a weekend camping, let alone a zombie apocalypse. With the stuff they pull and the horrible decision they make, like taking on a whole herd of zombies single-handed. They should be zombie food at the beginning of the movie. But then we wouldn’t have a movie.

So, with that in mind, I created a list on how to survive a zombie apocalypse and not get eaten. (This is not a serious list and is just my opinion. Therefore, if you need survival advice, seek the advice of a professional survivalist)

1. Stay up high. You can’t get eaten, if those zombies can’t reach you. I don’t know how many zombie films I’ve watched, were night falls and they set up camp. Then just sleep on the ground. How stupid can you get? Yeah, pretty sure you would get eaten if you did that.
Sleeping high up in a tree or on a flat roof top, is a much better idea, if you don’t want to be eaten. All you need is a bit of rope ensure you can’t fall to your death. If your planning to stay long-term, you can always build a tree house for shelter or build a camp on a flat roof. The roof top would also give you room to grow food (if you can get grow-bags up there), well out of reach of zombies. Plus, you never have to worry about herds, you can wait them out, on the roof tops.


The walking dead cup (my favourite cup)

2. Wear clothing zombies can’t bite through, like motorbike gear and leather. Zombies can’t eat you, if their teeth can’t bite through your clothing. This also prevents being bitten by those sneaky zombies, that hide down low.

3. Don’t break open locked doors. They are locked for a reason. That reason most likely being, a huge, hungry zombie locked inside. Open that door and you’re zombie food. In zombie movies, there’s always that one idiot that insists on opening that suspicious locked door and gets everyone eaten.

4. Watch your feet and stay alert. Some many deaths happen because no one looks were they are standing and watches out for hidden zombies. It’s just a shame, no one sees that zombie, causally sitting there on the ground, waiting for its next meal to walk past. It’s so obvious, but they’re too busy looking at that zombie in the distance, to notice one sitting right at their feet.

bcab1a8a-28a4-4478-8f97-d4c6b70d622f5. Keep a dog or 2 around. Not only would they keep spirits up, but they can smell dead things from miles away. Train a dog to signal when a zombie is near and you have your own zombie sniffer dog. What better way to avoid zombies and not get eaten. Dogs can also be used to hunt, for warmth, to find food and for protection from thugs.

6. Don’t rely on canned foods. Everyone will be fighting each other for canned food, so it could get dangerous. Canned food will also eventually run out, so growing food would make you a target, for other survivors. Storing food will also make you a huge target and could get you killed. A much better option is hunting and gathering. If you’re not such what’s eatable, get a book on foraging from a library or book store (probably the least likely place to run into zombies).

7. Stay away from that sick or injured person. This sounds like a no brainer, but in zombie films, they always stupidly go help, without taking any precautions. A short while later the person turns and tries to eat everyone. They could have at least tied the person up, for peace sake. It’s as if they want to be eaten.


Coconut Head. Left alone in a car, with a notebook and a pen. Doodling bound to happen. Don’t like drawing in pen, though. You can’t erase and you’re stuck with whatever you draw.        

8. Don’t trust that random guy, that turns up from nowhere, promising shelter and safety. Seems like common sense, but no. In the films, they all follow that nice stranger to his camp, where they are attacked, robbed or imprisoned. So, if a stranger offers to take you to their camp, ran for your life, in the opposite direction, as fast as you can.

9. Avoid large groups. Large groups only attract herds of zombies. Plus, it’s much harder to find enough food to feed a large group, so you’ll most likely go hungry. A small group of 3 or 4, is much better. There’s enough eyes, to watch out for zombie and enough hands to fend them off. It is also much easier to find enough food for 3 or 4 people.

10. If trapped by zombies, with no way out, play zombie. Sounds silly, but always works in the movies and I can see why. They are zombies, not geniuses. If you look, smell and act like a zombie, they won’t be able to tell the difference. So, if you find yourself trapped, quickly smother yourself in zombie juice, pull your best zombie pose and limp the hell out of there.

He calls himself friend, so why be so cruel.


Lady Joker. How that A-hole made me feel.  

He begged me to show him, even though I told him I didn’t want to. He wouldn’t leave me at peace, until I did. I knew he would take them for face value and make no effort to understand. I was right. He took a 2 second look at each and made his judgement.

When I told him no, he acted like a child. Using emotional blackmail to get his way. Saying that, I was being unfair and acting like I don’t trust him. He said, I don’t let others in because I’m scared.

Honestly, I knew he was being manipulative and what he said was complete rubbish. He really doesn’t know me that well, if he thinks he can manipulate me in just a childish way. He could have made more of an effort. Recognised my true insecurities and blackmailed me with those, instead of conventional insecurities, I don’t even have.

bb6e4431-4ad2-46e4-855b-e8a918070d06He was starting to get on my last nerve and I was tired. I just wanted him to go away and leave me be. I thought if I showed him a few of my digital drawings, he would be satisfied and stop tormenting me. I was wrong. His hurtful remarks, were just redirected to having personal stabs at me.

7bddfe60-ce21-4021-8df1-36babfc471d8I had warned him, that I use drawing as an emotional outlet. So, what did he expect. They represent “negative” feelings, so aren’t going to be rainbows and ponies. There was no need to resort to name calling, saying I was dark, disturbed and a creep. That I was sick and needed help. The only thing I need help with is distancing myself from people like him.

My drawings aren’t even that dark. They are mostly just people, standing there doing nothing. How does that make me disturbed? Yeah, the people aren’t exactly happy and some are being haunted, but that’s just life. They aren’t doing anything horribly evil, so why judge me as “troubled”, based on a few drawings.



If I had drawn something filled with blood and gore, then yes, I could see where he was coming from. But I didn’t. I drew how I felt at that time. If he doesn’t like how I feel, I’d prefer he left me alone and keep his negativity to himself. If I am sick (like he said), then telling me in just a rude and taunting way, surely would only add to the matter and is not how you help an ill person. People like him will be the death of me.


Another Self-Portrait

If he had paid attention and didn’t just glance. If he tried to understand. Then he would see that I’m not disturbed or evil. Maybe he’s just not perceptive. Still, he didn’t need to be so mean. If he had said my drawing were rubbish and that I couldn’t draw for dung, then I wouldn’t have been hurt. After all, I wasn’t drawing for approval. I was drawing for me. They didn’t have to be master pieces. Their purpose was to stop me bottling my emotional and to prevent my mind from cracking. If anything, I’d call my drawings healthy. They are not mentally unwell.

1364b438-e244-4371-88f4-3ddd328cbf3fHis words hurt, but screw him. We all have struggles. If I want to let these feelings out, in a health and safe manner by drawing, then I’m going to. Bottling my feelings has only caused me more pain. If he doesn’t like what I drew, then he shouldn’t have annoyed me until I showed him.

Sorry for ranting a bit. This guy, that calls himself my friend, just really irritated me. It might sound like he was just concerned about me, but he is not. I think he gets off on making people feel awful and thought I’d make the perfect victim.


Black Butler reference. Love this drawing, so it ended up being my Header image. I drew it in a mood. Probably the only good thing to come out of being in a horribly mood.               


Don’t Look into the Sun or Lock Yourself Out.

20170526_152859Feeling pretty stupid right now. Earlier today, I somehow managed to lock myself out of the house. It’s times like this I wonder if I even have a brain. I’m a disaster, but I won’t dwell on it. Eventually, everyone does something stupid and time definitely does make fools of us all.

Anyway, after deciding that I was a complete idiot, I thought I might as well make the most of being locked out on just a lovely sunny day. I haven’t posted any nature photos in a while, so I went on a hunt for some beautiful nature to photograph.

Surrounded by countryside and patches of forest, I’m spoiled for choice when it goes to nature. However, one thing I’ve always found really beautiful this time of year, is hawthorn trees.

tree.jpgFor the rest of the year, these trees are quite miserable looking, with twisty branches, giant thorns and barely any leaves. This time of year, they are transformed into beautiful white bushes, completely covered with gorgeous white blooms. It’s a true ugly duckling transformation.

For anyone with asthma or hay fever, there is a massive down side to these blooms. They will try to bring death by coughing, sneezing and stinging eyes. These tress are everywhere, so if you’re sensitive to its pollen, you have no choice but to stay indoors until these trees have stopped blooming.

20170526_183304Walking around outside, I noticed something else that was really beautiful today, the sky. It’s usually never this blue or clear. Normally, it grey, dull, cloudy and full of rain. Very rarely do we have a sky like this and it’s amazing.

suunWhile taking photos of the sky, I accidentally took a picture of the sun and it looks incredible. Usually we can’t appreciate how wonderful and stunning the sun is (considering looking directly at the sun, would burn the eyes out of your head). Looking at this picture still kind of hurts your eyes, but it shows how truly amazing and beautiful the sun really is. This photo alone, made being locked out all day, not so bad.

Before I Wake


Evil Butterflies (A.K.A Moths)

Where can I watch this: Netflix (Netflix original)

Thanks for the nightmare fuel, Netflix. My sleep deprivation and sleep paralysis has gotten a hell of a lot more interesting after watching this. Watching alone in the dark, was a really bad idea, on my behalf. I scared the bananas out of myself.

This movie got me on two levels. One, it fed the fear of being attacked by something horribly terrifying, while completely unable to move or scream.  And two, being chased and eaten alive, by something that can appear and disappear at well, is possibly the scariest thing I can think of.

If you’re not a nervous wreck and don’t jump at your own shadow, you most likely won’t find Before I wake that scary. For anyone with sleep paralysis, I would definitely not recommend this movie. It’ll just give your brain a new terrifying creature, to torment you with while it holds you captive in your bed.

Overall, Before I wake isn’t that bad. It’s about a boy, with the ability to bring his dreams to life, while he sleeps. The boy’s mother dies when he is very young, so he ends up in foster care. He is eventually fostered by a couple, whose son drowned to death in their bath tube. The couple soon discover the boy’s ability and instead of bringing him to a sleep therapist, like any caring guardian would do. The mother figure in this relationship, decides to become an emotional parasite and forces the boy to dream about her dead son. To allow her to see and spend time with, what she thinks is her dead son.

f01937c0-bf23-4670-ae15-3670ed0e86aeThe boy is obviously terrified of his dreams and his ability. At one point, he even tells the mother figure that, he is scared and doesn’t want to sleep because there’s a monster in his dreams, that eats people. Again, instead of bringing the child to a therapist, the emotional parasite and her husband enabler, decides to expose the child to mental abuse, forcing him to watch home videos of their dead son. This abuse gets worse, leading to the emotional parasite drugging the poor boy, so that he would sleep for longer. Giving her more time with a dream vision of her dead son.

But then Karma strikes, and the monster from the child’s dreams, finally turns up to (in my opinion) save the child from this messed up abuse. Unfortunately, the monster only eats the enabler and the emotional parasite survives the attack.

After the attack, the boy is rightfully removed from the couple’s care, because the child was drugged, the husband is missing and they suspected domestic violence. The emotional parasite is left alone without either of her hosts. Feeling insecure, vulnerable and peeved that her host was removed from her care, she finally decides to act in the child’s best interest and do something that benefits the child for a change. The mother figure then sets out to find out the truth behind the boy’s abilities and to find a way to rid the boy of the monster from his dreams.

Although it sounds like I hated this movie, it wasn’t that bad. It was more annoying that the mother figure was treating the boy horribly and it was kind of made out to be an okay thing to do (it’s definitely not okay. It’s pretty sick). The movie itself was okay. It was just that character’s behaviour that was irritating.

Before I wake isn’t that scare, so could be watched by lovers of horror and by those who like watching the occasional horror. If you are lost for something to watch on Netflix, I would definitely recommend giving Before I wake a try. You never know you might like it more than I did.
Rating: 2/5